It would be great to have anyone reading this interact and share your thoughts and stories.
Wednesday 3rd Sept
Its been a boring day spent at home ,the weather is rubbish and rained most of the day so I’ve not ventured out today, I’ve spent the day playing music and taking part in a few chat groups I’m on
Tuesday 2nd Sept 2025
morning all, well I say all its just me here I’m guessing, normal start to the day with an email saying I didn’t get the job again, its become the standard mornings reading over the last few months I’m afraid and hardly what I need to boost my motivation and confidence but as always il keep going and moving forward in the hope il get lucky at some point, there must be some value in my years of experience to an employer in some position you would think.
In other news I’m still not feeling great the dizzy spells are persisting as is the stomach issues blood test show nothings wrong but the symptoms say otherwise , still trying to get out everyday but its becoming more of a challenge owing to the dizzy spells.
Monday Sept 1st catch up
So its been a mad few days, Friday I was quite unwell and after visiting my Doctor I was sent for emergency blood tests at the local Hospital to be tested for Pancreatitis, thankfully I was clear, sat although not feeling great I did a Wedding shoot it was a long day starting at 0730 and I didn’t arrive home till midnight with sore legs and back.
Test message showed up mate. Fantastic blog. I really like it. I think it’s so relatable. Keep up the good work. The honest perspective is very refreshing. So much better hearing an account from someone who goes through this first hand rather than from a specialist. All the best my friend,
Keith
It is worth the effort mate. Even if it’s just for your benefit, it’s worth it. When I googled it to have a read up, it’s not top of the searches so it will still need time. Sorry to hear about the job searches. Hopefully you’ll hear soon from work. Still crossing everything for you 🤞
Thanks so much for taking the time to read this blog mate and for the push to keep going its much appreciated.
No problem Al. I enjoy reading it. Very insightful.
No problem Al. I enjoy reading it. Very insightful. It’s a shame these replies don’t ping up as a notification. You only see them when you specifically go on here. Shame it doesn’t ping an email saying there’s a reply etc.
Sorry mate.
I meant sorry to hear it’s sent you spiralling.
RIP Ozzy. Can’t believe he went so soon after his farewell gig. Mad how these things happen. Just listening to him and Randy Rhodes as I write this. Sad loss. Sorry to hear about the job hunting fella. I can’t even imagine it.
Hope you feel better soon mate.
You’ve helped so many people mate. Me being one of them. I can only reiterate what you wrote, don’t wait to get the help meds can offer. I certainly wished I started sooner. Take care brother.
Thanks mate really appreciate you reading my blog and taking part in it
Hi mate. Is there a way to have your latest entries first? As you’re writing daily, the scrolling to the bottom to read your latest post well get really long. Can it be reversed so it’s latest to oldest?
Shame about the golf today mate. Great to see you’re still going gym. Better man than I am. Hope the weight journey is going well. This thing of ours is definitely a blessing and a curse to nick a phrase from the TV detective, Monk. I hope people are enjoying this blog as much as I am. I hope there’s a way you can tell if people are visiting your site even if they don’t comment? To give you the confidence to carry on as I can imagine it takes a lot to do a blog. Hopefully you can see any traffic without them sending a message as they may still not feel ready to reach out. I would probably be the same if it wasn’t for the fact we’ve been mates for over a decade. Wow, where’s that time gone? If we hadn’t crossed paths all them years ago, I would never have gotten the help I needed if it wasn’t for you spotting me as one that had mental health troubles. And I concur with what you say about don’t just stop meds if you’re having a good spell. I’ve done that and it was the worst thing I could of done. Keep it up fella.
Hats off to you Al, for wearing your heart on your sleeve and opening up on a blog. Through all of your struggles, you are such a kind hearted man and i am sure you will be helping others by continuing to document your journey through life’s ups and downs here.
Keep pushing through because you have come a long way already and you are not a quitter 🙏
Thank so much for taking the time to read my blog Happy its much appreciated and thank you for your kind words
As always Keith I really appreciate your support and kind words on this its not nothing that I have done before or have any background in so your help in motivating me to carry on is great
Couldn’t agree more mate with your observation regarding getting motivated for our own needs less than that for helping others. For me, personally, I feel like I’m not worthy of anything. Not worthy of people’s love and affection. So I don’t put anything out there under normal circumstances because I feel like I’m attention seeking or something. Even as I write this, it’s in support of your tremendous blog. To hopefully show others how good it is and to hopefully encourage others to just say, “hi”. That’s how I can bring myself to post. Love you too brother and I hope G gets fantastic support for her great cause. She’ll smash it.
Hope you enjoy the golf today mate. Thanks for the message this morning too.
Glad you had a lovely birthday mate. Sorry to hear about the job front. I’m restarting gym too.
Morning mate. If it’s helping, writing this blog, then it’s all been worthwhile and a reason to keep it going. Getting things off your chest and down in writing may be a coping strategy that is helping in it’s own way. It’s something you’ve thought about for a while isn’t it. Remember when you was going to do something similar but in a physical format like a diary/memoir? Keep it up at least for the time being. I don’t know how you can get it out there more for more interaction other than through social media but as you know, that’s not my forte. But if there’s a way you can even via Facebook so you can maybe manage how it gets seen? Either way, as always, thinking of you and wishing you all the best on all fronts. Mentally, physically and on the job fronts.
As always mate I really appreciate your support and kindness
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Hi mate. Dunno if you saw my message about restarting the jabs but I’ve gone back on the base dosage as per my dr’s instructions. Been ok so far 🤞
Fair play to getting back to the gym mate. I rejoined and cancelled within the 14 day cooling off period lol. Bloody hate that place 😂
Best thing I did was getting off all social media mate
Have you decided to stop writing mate?